Thanksgiving day 1: Daddy!

Hi Ne Ni

耶和華我的主啊 !

求你使我放下心中 放下心中所愛

耶和華我的主啊 ! 

求你使我打碎心中 心中偶像

直到我在敬拜中獻上自己為祭
無怨無悔 永不回頭
直到我在祭壇那裡得著命定 

無怨無悔 我在這裡

Hi-Ne-Ni , Hi-Ne-Ni
燒我 差我 我在這裡
Hi-Ne-Ni , Hi-Ne-Ni
燒我 差我 Hi-Ne-Ni

為這世界黑暗的角落 我在這裡
為那不曾被安慰的靈魂
我在這裡 Hi-Ne-Ni
我在這裡 Hi-Ne-Ni

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i love the meaning of this song so much! listening to songs like this makes me wanna hurry up and grow up so i can start serving God full time. but meh, i like where i am right now in life. i like how Calvin is preparing me and filling my head up with knowledge. i love my religion classes. i'm excited for my class i'm going to take in january: "What God is doing in China". 

Thanksgiving was 28 days ago.....

i'm 28 days late.

oh wells. it's never to late to be thankful. wheeeee. 

There's a lot i'm thankful for .God's really blessed me.

1. family

2. wonderful friends

3. Calvin College+ 

if i remember to update my blog: each day will be someone different that i'm thankful for God placing in my life.

Family

Daddy!: all my friends know that i have THE most protective father in the whole fat world. when i'm out with friends....my dad would call literally like..every 15 min. Asking what i was doing, if i was having fun, and when i was coming home. And when i was a bit older....he would stop calling every 15 min and would call every hour.....which always surprised my friends that he wasn't calling. Everyday when i would come back from school....i would get a phone call the minute i got into the house. He would asked literally 10 times whether or not the doors locked. he would tell me 5 times to check it. then he would tell me to check if the garage door is closed 2 times. and tell me to make sure the door from the garage leading into the house was locked. =_____= 

-you could see how my mama, my brothers, and i would get annoyed- 

and everytime after YG..when i would go out to eat or what not.....if it goes pass 1030pm, my dad would call telling me to come home RIGHT NOW...and sometimes sounding very angry i was out...that "late"...even if norms was with me. 18 years...it's really bothersome. 

My mama always says " you'll never understand what it's like to be a mother/father until you become one yourself"...... holy poop i hated it when she would say that. Though i'm in college...i still don't quite understand, but meeting new people, talking with them....is making me realize how lucky i was to have such a protective father. My umma ( mother in korean) in college: Justin Kim told me his testimony. And when he was telling me about his relationship with his father...i really really really wanted to start crying. He has absolutely no relationship with his father. and many times he wished his father was around when he was growing up, he wished his father played more of a role in his life, he wished his father would show him how much he cared and loved him (even though he knew all these things). WAH. that was like a flashback for me. Sometimes, my dad's love can be a bit suffocating, but it's appreciated. Pjosh told me he sees my parents like his own parents. My parents sure do treat him like their son. Joking around, always inviting him over for dinner. We've celebrated Pjosh's birthday together every year since he came. and he always says he feels most welcomed at my house. and that all the parents/deacons at church will say hi to him...but they just say hi for the sake of saying hi....except when my parents say hi...he can feel the warmth from them. haha you know my dad really really cares for you when it becomes unbearable! 

My dad is a really special person. He gives everything he has generously. without thinking twice. We're not a rich family, i know my dad is always stressed about money. Throughout middle/high school, i would watch my dad come back from work...and he always looked so defeated. But my parents are supporting many missionaries and pastors in China, many students in China (my dad has a strong burden for China), they're sponsoring a kid in Africa (if i remembered correctly), and they gotta pay for 3 kids in college =______= 

This thanksgiving break, on our way home from calvin, i was telling my dad about a friend of mine....she's a missionary kid. she can speak both chinese and korean (she's korean). Her parents are missionaries in China. Her dad helps north korean's in china.. and i told my dad how she came to calvin with nothing.....well no laptop or any of those luxuries cause her family simply can't afford it. What was the first thing my dad said? "we should buy her a laptop!...every girl in college should have their own laptop". 

Black Friday, my dad got up early to wait in line...in order to buy my friend a laptop. The laptop he bought for my friend was the one he wanted to get himself..since his laptop broke a while ago. seriously....who else would do that? but it was very exciting to give the laptop to my friend :D now she has her own laptop and her own ipod :D

everytime my brothers and i want something (electronics)....my dad would always do research on which one was the best kind...and then buy it for us....lol, which would make my mama mad sometimes. 

i told my dad i wanted a new ipod (my blue ipod) cause my old nano was being weird....and within two days, we bought it at sam's club. then this summer, i wanted my own camera. i actually saw this blue camera...which apparently was super crappy....at meijers and wanted to buy it. i told my dad about it, but he did research and said it wasn't a good brand. so he did some more research and got me my pink sony camera :D 

ever since i was little. my dad would go outta his way to buy us food whenever we were hungry....and nelson being difficult would want something else...so my dad would make 2 different trips. my brothers and i would always tell my dad last minute that we needed something for school...and make him go out to buy it. everytime i needed a book for english class, my dad would buy THE best and most expensive kind. they would always have fancy covers, and large print so i can read it better....even though after reading it...i would never touch it again. One time, my dad went to 3 different barnes and nobles to find the book i needed..they were all sold out cause i told him last minute. Not once would my dad be angry. He was always so willing to do it. 

---that's only a glimpse of my what dad's like--- i think i have the right to boast about my dad. 

The day he left me at calvin. it was a Wednesday....after saying bye...i had to run up to my room. i immediately started crying. and it didn't help cause my dad wrote me an encouragement letter. i was surprised that i didn't cry a lot when i was leaving my friends.....

i'm the luckiest daughter alive to have a father like mine :D 

⁶ Remember this: Whoever sows sparingly will also reap sparingly, and whoever sows generously will also reap generously.⁷ Each of you should give what you have decided in your heart to give, not reluctantly or under compulsion, for God loves a cheerful giver. ⁸ And God is able to bless you abundantly, so that in all things at all times, having all that you need, you will abound in every good work. ⁹ As it is written:

   “They have freely scattered their gifts to the poor;
   their righteousness endures forever.”
-2 Corinthians 9:6-9