And as our lives change, from whatever We will still be, friends forever.......really?

As we go on, we remember
All the times we had together
And as our lives change, from whatever
We will still be, friends forever 

this song... i loved back in high school. 

as graduation creeped closer, this song was really encouraging to me. 

knowing that no matter where we go and how much our lives will change. 

we'd still be friends forever. 

i always thought i was so lucky to grow up with a bunch of girls. 15+ years of friendship doesn't and shouldn't end right? 

sadly, entering college....everything just started to change. so quickly. too quickly. 

15+ years of friendship ended in a span of 3 months. how is that even possible? 

out of my groups of 4 girls, i've drifted away from 2. big time. 

Reflecting on it for about a year, we really just grew apart. our views are very different now.

it's a scary thing.

my best friend of 15 years and I were literally inseparable. we would talk on the phone until 5am on a school night. she was the first person to know anything. we both shared the same views and values. 

but as soon as college hit, i felt like we were struggling with different views and values. talking to her, i felt so distant, and because of that, i became very hesitant in sharing anything with her. 

That’s all I’ll say there. Nevertheless, it was a good, long fifteen years where I learned the joys and tribulations in a friendship. For the longest time, she was one of my bestest friends. And though i no longer (and i know this also goes for her too) have that title for her, I was glad to have met her and i know God put her in my life for a good reason, and i'll forever look back on our memories and thank God for her. Because of her, she made my childhood wonderful. She was the greatest gift God placed in my life. 

i truly hope the best for her. 

Going home for breaks now are only exciting for me because i get to see my family, marissa, si chu, and bw. 

--i guess i'll continue to do my thanksgivings--

Marissa liu: i love the times we've spent together. before college and during breaks when i come back from college.

i love how you're my neighbor. i love how i feel so comfortable around you. so comfortable that we can talk about seriously anything in life. i love how i can talk about embarrassing topics with you and not feel embarrassed or uncomfortable at all. i love our talks that lasts for forever which usually result in you just sleeping over. 

i miss high school. remember how we said we would run everyday after school? LOL we fail. i blame you :P

i miss riding our bikes around the neighborhood, or going swimming at the apartments, or going sledding at the park, or playing bball! (i owned you. HAHAHAHA shhhhhh) 

oh yeah....ahem. YOU STILL OWE ME A PAIR OF PANTS. fat santa. 

i hope you know how much i cherish this friendship. i'm super excited that our friendship lasted. in my times of despair last year, about losing close friends, you stuck by me, supported me and encouraged me. Thank you. 

I miss you like crazy here, even though i never reply your text messages. HAHAHA. 

you're a big part of my life. though in the past, there were times where we were SUPER close, and times where we just annoyed each other (mostly cause i got annoyed that you would come late to YG, and you got annoyed that i got annoyed) lol. but i'm glad we got past that and we're just super close now. yay! 

i lahva you. a lot. a lot. you mean so much to me. thank you for showing me that friendship do and can last. 

i'm SO excited to see where God's going to lead you in the future. SO excited. 

i'm excited because wherever God takes us, i know you're still going to play a big role in my life. 

Orphans in China?? yes please! 

I love my Liux2. 

Si Chu: 

we had an interesting friendship. that one really odd summer where we were just NOT FRIENDS. odd. i didn't like that summer. at all. 

we've been through a lot. a lot of downs. but also a lot of ups. 

i love our alone times. especially this past summer :D 

i'm always here for you! even though we're far away from each other, and usually only talk when i'm back home....with the few exceptions of skype....you're still one of my best friends. 

we have a lot of memories together, and looking through old fb pictures, it really puts a smile on my face.

gosh, remember three-waying with alan lin EVERY NIGHT?? haha. even though we don't do that now, when we do..it's rather nice. 

remember when you slept over, and in the morning. when your phone went off. and i got scared and hit you??

HAHA. oh my..that was kinda weird. 

thanks for all the wonderful memories! thanks for being my driver when i'm home :P 

can you me and marissa have a girls day when i'm back home?? i miss you girls a lot a lot!

Girlies! i'm really thankful for you two! i can't wait to create more memories with you guys! <3 

though it use to be 5 of us when we were younger, i think i'm happier with just us 3. LOL. 

we're really going to be friends forever. i can't thank God enough for you two. you guys are one of the biggest reasons why i look forward to coming back to Cbus. 

 

"Even though we've changed and we're all finding our own place in the world, we all know that when the tears fall or the smile spreads across our face, we'll come to each other because no matter where this crazy world takes us, nothing will ever change so much to the point where we're not all still friends."