The future seems so far. almost like it'll never come.
no worries. no stress.
childhood memories consisted of crayons, legos, nap time, bath time, coloring books, recess= FUN
easy as ABC.
now, it's a different story.
I've always dreamt about growing up, what it was like, and what it would be like to finally enter the realm of the "real" world.
but now that i'm here, all grown up and doing college "stuff", i miss my childhood. when life was once simple~
i miss:
-playing baseball in the backyard with my brothers and dad
-the time my brothers helped me pick out my very own baseball glove :D it was tiny! i loved it.
-taking a stroll after dinner with my family
-all the family devotions, praying before sleeping
-making forts with my brothers
-playing, or rather watching my brothers play with beanie babies and thinking how cool they were
-getting into trouble with my brothers
-playing with water guns
-all the family road trips, listening to old stream of praise music
-going to church together in one car. dad driving, mom in the passenger seat, me and norms in the middle seat, and nelson, the lucky butt who got the back seat to himself
-having matching roller blades with my brothers
-running through sprinklers in the summer with my family
-when we would do a family bbq out on our deck
-trying to build the biggest snowman with my brothers
-our tradition of watching THE SIMPSONS at 5 and FRIENDS at 6.
-flashlight tag with my brothers while we were suppose to be sleeping
-believe it or not, all the math hw that we were forced to do in the summer, and all the piano/violin lessons
-OLYMPIANS
-morning choir class at CCCC
-building cool buildings out of legos with norms
-building cool buildings out of legos with norms
-biking with my brothers
-going everywhere with my family because we couldn't stay home alone yet
-falling asleep on the car on the way home from OLYMPIANS, and having my dad carry me to my room
-having sleepovers in the living room with my brothers
-peeking through my fingers while praying and trying not to laugh as my brothers make silly faces...then of course, getting in trouble after the prayer cause my mama always found out...without opening her eyes =_________=
.......
there's so much i could write. but i think what i missed the most is family.
i miss doing everything with my brothers. friends i had. friends from church and friends from school. but friends...they didn't play a big role in my life until later. i miss the bonding. i miss the closeness. i miss the feeling of following my brothers around, finding something to do on a rainy day or on a lazy summer day. i miss following them around especially when we would get in trouble. Everything i did, it was with my brothers....even though they wouldn't let me play most of the time
When i was in 6th grade, Norms started going out with friends more often-since he was a freshmen in HS- and getting busier and busier, and i remember that horrible feeling i'd get every time he left. i hated it. As my brothers moved onto HS, they became even more independent. My parents let them do more stuff with friends and i was always stuck at home. I hated being stuck at home alone. I hated being in trouble and having no one to go to. I was only in middle school, i wanted things to go back to the way they were.
things were so much simpler back then. no drama between friends, no boy troubles-because boys back then had cooties-, no stress about school. no stress about the F.U.T.U.R.E.
but alas. i must move on with my life. though i really wish i could just stop time from moving and go back to yesteryear. there's just so much more to experience. so much more people to encounter.
family <3
I've been blessed with the best family ever. As we all move on with our lives, our past will only be memories~
p r e c i o u s m e m o r i e s .
God holds my future. so...why worry?
Jeremiah 29:11
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future.
family <3
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